Wednesday 13 February 2013

City of Lost Souls - Chapter 5



She was dreaming of icy landscapes again. Bitter tundra that stretched in all directions,
ice floes drifting out on the black waters of the Arctic sea, snow-capped mountains, and
cities carved out of ice whose towers sparkled like the demon towers of Alicante.
In front of the frozen city was a frozen lake. Clary was skidding down a steep slope,
trying to reach the lake, though she was not sure why. Two dark figures stood out in the
center of the frozen water. As she neared the lake, skidding on the surface of the slope,
her hands burning from contact with the ice, and snow filling her shoes, she saw that one
was a boy with black wings that spread out from his back like a crow’s. His hair was as
white as the ice all around them. Sebastian. And beside Sebastian was Jace, his gold hair
the only color in the frozen landscape that was not black or white.
As Jace turned away from Sebastian and began to walk toward Clary, wings burst from
his back, white-gold and shimmering. Clary slid the last few feet to the frozen surface of
the lake and collapsed to her knees, exhausted. Her hands were blue and bleeding, her
lips cracked, her lungs seared with each icy breath.
“Jace,” she whispered.
And he was there, lifting her to her feet, his wings wrapping around her, and she was
warm again, her body thawing from her heart down through her veins, bringing her hands
and feet to life with half-painful, half-pleasurable tingles. “Clary,” he said, stroking her
hair tenderly. “Can you promise me that you won’t scream?”
Clary’s eyes opened. For a moment she was so disoriented that the world seemed to
swing around her like the view from a moving carousel. She was in her bedroom at Luke’s
—the familiar futon beneath her, the wardrobe with its cracked mirror, the strip of
windows that looked out onto the East River, the radiator spitting and hissing. Dim light
spilled through the windows, and a faint red glow came from the smoke alarm over the
closet. Clary was lying on her side, under a heap of blankets, and her back was deliciously
warm. An arm was draped along her side. For a moment, in the half-conscious dizzy
space between waking and sleeping, she wondered if Simon had crawled in the window
while she slept and lain down beside her, the way they used to sleep in the same bed
together when they were children.
But Simon had no body heat.
Her heart skittered in her chest. Now entirely awake, she twisted around under the
covers. Beside her was Jace, lying on his side, looking down at her, his head propped on
his hand. Dim moonlight made a halo out of his hair, and his eyes glittered gold like a
cat’s. He was fully dressed, still wearing the short-sleeved white T-shirt she had seen him
in earlier that day, and his bare arms were twined with runes like climbing vines.
She sucked in a startled breath. Jace, her Jace, had never looked at her like that. He
had looked at her with desire, but not with this lazy, predatory, consuming look that
made her heart pulse unevenly in her chest.
She opened her mouth—to say his name or to scream, she wasn’t sure, and she never
got the chance to find out; Jace moved so fast she didn’t even see it. One moment he
was lying beside her, and the next he was on top of her, one hand clamped down over
her mouth. His legs straddled her hips; she could feel his lean, muscled body pressed
against hers.
“I’m not going to hurt you,” he said. “I’d never hurt you. But I don’t want you
screaming. I need to talk to you.”
She glared at him.
To her surprise he laughed. His familiar laugh, hushed to a whisper. “I can read your
expressions, Clary Fray. The minute I take my hand off your mouth, you’re going to yell.
Or use your training and break my wrists. Come on, promise me you won’t. Swear on the
Angel.”
This time she rolled her eyes.
“Okay, you’re right,” he said. “You can’t exactly swear with my hand over your mouth.
I’m going to take it off. And if you yell—” He tilted his head to the side; pale gold hair fell
across his eyes. “I’ll disappear.”
He took his hand away. She lay still, breathing hard, the pressure of his body on hers.
She knew he was faster than her, that there was no move she could make that he
wouldn’t outpace, but for the moment he seemed to be treating their interaction as a
game, something playful. He bent closer to her, and she realized her tank top had pulled
up, and she could feel the muscles of his flat, hard stomach against her bare skin. Her
face flushed.
Despite the heat in her face, it felt as if cold needles of ice were running up and down
her veins. “What are you doing here?”
He drew back slightly, looking disappointed. “That isn’t really an answer to my
question, you know. I was expecting more of a ‘Hallelujah Chorus.’ I mean, it’s not every
day your boyfriend comes back from the dead.”
“I already knew you weren’t dead.” She spoke through numb lips. “I saw you in the
library. With—”
“Colonel Mustard?”
“Sebastian.”
He let his breath out in a low chuckle. “I knew you were there too. I could feel it.”
She felt her body tighten. “You let me think you were gone,” she said. “Before that. I
thought you—I really thought there was a chance you were—” She broke off; she couldn’t
say it. Dead. “It’s unforgivable. If I’d done that to you—”
“Clary.” He leaned down over her again; his hands were warm on her wrists, his breath
soft in her ear. She could feel everywhere that their bare skin touched. It was horribly
distracting. “I had to do it. It was too dangerous. If I’d told you, you would have had to
choose between telling the Council I was still alive—and letting them hunt me—and
keeping a secret that would make you an accomplice in their eyes. Then, when you saw
me in the library, I had to wait. I needed to know if you still loved me, if you would go to
the Council or not about what you’d seen. You didn’t. I had to know you cared more about
me than the Law. You do, don’t you?”
“I don’t know,” she whispered. “I don’t know. Who are you?”
“I’m still Jace,” he said. “I still love you.”
Hot tears welled up in her eyes. She blinked, and they spilled down her face. Gently he
ducked his head and kissed her cheeks, and then her mouth. She tasted her own tears,
salty on his lips, and he opened her mouth with his, carefully, gently. The familiar taste
and feel of him washed over her, and she leaned into him for a split second, her doubts
subsumed in her body’s blind, unreasoning recognition of the need to keep him close, to
keep him there—just as the door of her bedroom opened.
Jace let go of her. Clary instantly jerked away from him, scrambling to pull down her
tank top. Jace stretched himself into a sitting position with unhurried, lazy grace, and
grinned up at the person standing in the doorway. “Well, well,” Jace said. “You may have
the worst timing since Napoléon decided the dead of winter was the right moment to
invade Russia.”
It was Sebastian.
Close up, Clary could more clearly see the differences in him since she had known him
in Idris. His hair was paper white, his eyes black tunnels fringed by lashes as long as
spider’s legs. He wore a white shirt, the sleeves pulled up, and she could see a red scar
ringing his right wrist, like a ridged bracelet. There was a scar across the palm of his
hand, too, looking new and harsh.
“That’s my sister you’re defiling there, you know,” he said, moving his black gaze to
Jace. There was amusement in his expression.
“Sorry.” Jace didn’t sound sorry. He was leaning back against the blankets, catlike. “We
got carried away.”
Clary sucked in a breath. It sounded harsh in her own ears. “Get out,” she said, to
Sebastian.
He leaned against the door frame, elbow and hip, and she was struck by the similarity
in movement between him and Jace. They didn’t look alike, but they moved alike. As if—
As if they’d been trained to move by the same person.
“Now,” he said, “is that any way to talk to your big brother?”
“Magnus should have left you a coatrack,” Clary spat.
“Oh, you remember that, do you? I thought we had a pretty good time that day.” He
smirked a little, and Clary, with a sick drop in her stomach, remembered how he had
taken her to the burned remains of her mother’s house, how he had kissed her among the
rubble, knowing all along who they really were to each other and delighting in the fact
that she didn’t.
She glanced sideways at Jace. He knew perfectly well that Sebastian had kissed her.
Sebastian had taunted him with it, and Jace had nearly killed him. But he didn’t look
angry now; he looked amused, and mildly annoyed to have been interrupted.
“We should do it again,” Sebastian said, examining his nails. “Have some family time.”
“I don’t care what you think. You’re not my brother,” Clary said. “You’re a murderer.”
“I really don’t see how those things cancel each other out,” said Sebastian. “It’s not like
they did in the case of dear old Dad.” His gaze drifted lazily back to Jace. “Normally I’d
hate to get in the way of a friend’s love life, but I really don’t care for standing out here in
this hallway indefinitely. Especially since I can’t turn on any lights. It’s boring.”
Jace sat up, tugging his shirt down. “Give us five minutes.”
Sebastian sighed an exaggerated sigh and swung the door shut. Clary stared at Jace.
“What the f—”
“Language, Fray.” Jace’s eyes danced. “Relax.”
Clary jabbed her hand toward the door. “You heard what he said. About that day he
kissed me. He knew I was his sister. Jace—”
Something flashed in his eyes, darkening their gold, but when he spoke again, it was as
if her words had hit a Teflon surface and bounced off, making no impression.
She drew back from him. “Jace, aren’t you listening to anything I’m saying?”
“Look, I understand if you’re uncomfortable with your brother waiting outside in the
hallway. I wasn’t planning on kissing you.” He grinned in a way that at another time she
would have found adorable. “It just seemed like a good idea at the time.”
Clary scrambled out of the bed, staring down at him. She reached for the robe that
hung on the post of her bed and wrapped it around herself. Jace watched, making no
move to stop her, though his eyes shone in the dark. “I—I don’t even understand. First
you disappear, and now you come back with him, acting like I’m not even supposed to
notice or care or remember—”
“I told you,” he said. “I had to be sure of you. I didn’t want to put you in the position of
knowing where I was while the Clave was still investigating you. I thought it would be
hard for you—”
“Hard for me?” She was almost breathless with rage. “Tests are hard. Obstacle courses
are hard. You disappearing like that practically killed me, Jace. And what do you think
you’ve done to Alec? Isabelle? Maryse? Do you know what it’s been like? Can you
imagine? Not knowing, the searching—”
That odd look passed over his face again, as if he were hearing her but not hearing her
at the same time. “Oh, yes, I was going to ask.” He smiled like an angel. “Is everyone
looking for me?”
“Is everyone—” She shook her head, pulling the robe closer. Suddenly she wanted to be
covered up in front of him, in front of all that familiarity and beauty and that lovely
predatory smile that said he was willing to do whatever with her, to her, no matter who
was waiting in the hall.
“I was hoping they’d put up flyers like they do for lost cats,” he said. “Missing, one
stunningly attractive teenage boy. Answers to ‘Jace,’ or ‘Hot Stuff.’”
“You did not just say that.”
“You don’t like ‘Hot Stuff’? You think ‘Sweet Cheeks’ might be better? ‘Love Crumpet’?
Really, that last one’s stretching it a bit. Though, technically, my family is British—”
“Shut up,” she said savagely. “And get out.”
“I…” He looked taken aback, and she remembered how surprised he’d been outside the
Manor, when she’d pushed him away. “All right, fine. I’ll be serious. Clarissa, I’m here
because I want you to come with me.”
“Come where with you?”
“Come with me,” he said, and then hesitated, “and Sebastian. And I’ll explain
everything.”
For a moment she was frozen, her eyes locked on his. Silvery moonlight outlined the
curves of his mouth, the shape of his cheekbones, the shadow of his lashes, the arch of
his throat. “The last time I ‘came with you somewhere,’ I wound up knocked unconscious
and dragged into the middle of a black magic ceremony.”
“That wasn’t me. That was Lilith.”
“The Jace Lightwood I know wouldn’t be in the same room with Jonathan Morgenstern
without killing him.”
“I think you’ll find that would be self-defeating,” Jace said lightly, shoving his feet into
his boots. “We are bound, he and I. Cut him and I bleed.”
“Bound? What do you mean, bound?”
He tossed his light hair back, ignoring her question. “This is bigger than you
understand, Clary. He has a plan. He’s willing to work, to sacrifice. If you’d give me a
chance to explain—”
“He killed Max, Jace,” she said. “Your little brother.”
He flinched, and for a moment of wild hope she thought she’d broken through to him—
but his expression smoothed over like a wrinkled sheet pulled tight. “That was—it was an
accident. Besides, Sebastian’s just as much my brother.”
“No.” Clary shook her head. “He’s not your brother. He’s mine. God knows, I wish it
weren’t true. He should never have been born—”
“How can you say that?” Jace demanded. He swung his legs out of the bed. “Have you
ever considered that maybe things aren’t so black and white as you think?” He bent over
to grab his weapons belt and buckle it on. “There was a war, Clary, and people got hurt,
but—things were different then. Now I know Sebastian would never harm anyone I loved
intentionally. He’s serving a greater cause. Sometimes there’s collateral damage—”
“Did you just call your own brother collateral damage?” Her voice rose in an incredulous
half shout. She felt as if she could barely breathe.
“Clary, you’re not listening. This is important—”
“Like what Valentine thought he was doing was important?”
“Valentine was wrong,” he said. “He was right that the Clave was corrupt but wrong
about how to go about fixing things. But Sebastian is right. If you’d just hear us out—”
“‘Us,’” she said. “God. Jace…” He was staring at her from the bed, and even as she felt
her heart breaking, her mind was racing, trying to remember where she had left her stele,
wondering if she could get to the X-Acto knife in the drawer of her nightstand. Wondering
if she could bring herself to use it if she did.
“Clary?” Jace tilted his head to the side, studying her face. “You do—you still love me,
don’t you?”
“I love Jace Lightwood,” she said. “I don’t know who you are.”
His face changed, but before he could speak, a scream shattered the silence. A scream,
and the sound of breaking glass.
Clary knew the voice instantly. It was her mother.
Without another glance at Jace, she yanked the bedroom door open and bolted down
the hallway, into the living room. The living room in Luke’s house was large, divided from
the kitchen by a long counter. Jocelyn, in yoga pants and a frayed T-shirt, her hair pulled
back in a messy bun, stood by the counter. She had clearly come into the kitchen for
something to drink. A glass lay shattered at her feet, the water soaking into the gray
carpeting.
All the color had drained from her face, leaving her as pale as bleached sand. She was
staring across the room, and even before Clary turned her head, she knew what her
mother was looking at.
Her son.
Sebastian was leaning against the living room wall, near the door, with no expression
on his angular face. He lowered his eyelids and looked at Jocelyn through his lashes.
Something about his posture, the look of him, could have stepped out of Hodge’s
photograph of Valentine at seventeen years old.
“Jonathan,” Jocelyn whispered. Clary stood frozen, even as Jace burst out of the
hallway, took in the scene in front of him in one moment, and came to a halt. His left
hand was at his weapons belt; his slim fingers were inches from the hilt of one of his
daggers, but Clary knew it would take him less than seconds to free it.
“I go by ‘Sebastian’ now,” said Clary’s brother. “I concluded that I wasn’t interested in
keeping the name you and my father gave me. Both of you betrayed me, and I would
prefer as little association with you as possible.”
Water spread out from the pool of broken glass at Jocelyn’s feet in a dark ring. She
took a step forward, her eyes searching, running up and down Sebastian’s face. “I thought
you were dead,” she whispered. “Dead. I saw your bones turned to ashes.”
Sebastian looked at her, his black eyes quiet and narrow. “If you were a real mother,”
he said, “a good mother, you would have known I was alive. There was a man once who
said that mothers carry the key of our souls with them all our lives. But you threw mine
away.”
Jocelyn made a sound in the back of her throat. She was leaning against the counter
for support. Clary wanted to run to her, but her feet felt frozen to the ground. Whatever
was happening between her brother and her mother, it was something that had nothing
to do with her.
“Don’t tell me you aren’t even a little glad to see me, Mother,” Sebastian said, and
though his words were pleading, his voice was flat. “Aren’t I everything you could want in
a son?” He spread his arms wide. “Strong, handsome, looks just like dear old Dad.”
Jocelyn shook her head, her face gray. “What do you want, Jonathan?”
“I want what everyone wants,” said Sebastian. “I want what’s owed to me. In this case
the Morgenstern legacy.”
“The Morgenstern legacy is blood and devastation,” said Jocelyn. “We are not
Morgensterns here. Not me, and not my daughter.” She straightened up. Her hand was
still gripping the counter, but Clary could see some of the old fire returning to her
mother’s expression. “If you go now, Jonathan, I won’t tell the Clave you were ever here.”
Her eyes flicked to Jace. “Or you. If they knew you were cooperating, they would kill you
both.”
Clary moved to stand in front of Jace, reflexively. He looked past her, over her
shoulder, at her mother. “You care if I die?” Jace said.
“I care about what it would do to my daughter,” said Jocelyn. “And the Law is hard
—too hard. What has happened to you—maybe it can be undone.” Her eyes moved back
to Sebastian. “But for you—my Jonathan—it’s much too late.”
The hand that had been gripping the counter swept forward, holding Luke’s longhandled
kindjal blade. Tears shone on Jocelyn’s face. But her grip on the knife was
steady.
“I look just like him, don’t I?” Sebastian said, not moving. He seemed barely to notice
the knife. “Valentine. That’s why you’re looking at me like that.”
Jocelyn shook her head. “You look like you always did, from the moment I first saw
you. You look like a demon thing.” Her voice was achingly sad. “I’m so sorry.”
“Sorry for what?”
“For not killing you when you were born,” she said, and came out from behind the
counter, spinning the kindjal in her hand.
Clary tensed, but Sebastian didn’t move. His dark eyes followed his mother as she
came toward him. “Is that what you want?” he said. “For me to die?” He opened his arms,
as if he meant to embrace Jocelyn, and took a step forward. “Go ahead. Commit filicide. I
won’t stop you.”
“Sebastian,” said Jace. Clary shot him an incredulous look. Did he actually sound
concerned?
Jocelyn moved another step forward. The knife was a blur in her hand. When it came to
a stop, the tip was pointed directly at Sebastian’s heart.
Still, he didn’t move.
“Do it,” he said softly. He cocked his head to the side. “Or can you bring yourself to?
You could have killed me when I was born. But you didn’t.” His voice lowered. “Maybe
you know that there is no such thing as conditional love for a child. Maybe if you loved me
enough, you could save me.”
For a moment they stared at each other, mother and son, ice-green eyes meeting coalblack
ones. There were sharp lines at the corners of Jocelyn’s mouth that Clary could
have sworn hadn’t been there two weeks ago. “You’re pretending,” she said, her voice
shaking. “You don’t feel anything, Jonathan. Your father taught you to feign human
emotion the way one might teach a parrot to repeat words. It doesn’t understand what
it’s saying, and neither do you. I wish—oh, God, I wish—that you did. But—”
Jocelyn brought the blade up in a swift, clean, cutting arc. A perfectly placed blow, it
should have driven up under Sebastian’s ribs and into his heart. It would have, if he had
not moved even faster than Jace; he spun away and back, and the tip of the blade cut
only a shallow slash along his chest.
Beside Clary, Jace sucked in his breath. She whirled to look at him. There was a
spreading red stain across the front of his shirt. He touched his hand to it; his fingertips
came away bloody. We are bound. Cut him and I bleed.
Without another thought Clary darted across the room, throwing herself between
Jocelyn and Sebastian. “Mom,” she gasped. “Stop.”
Jocelyn was still holding the knife, her eyes on Sebastian. “Clary, get out of the way.”
Sebastian began to laugh. “Sweet, isn’t it?” he said. “A little sister defending her big
brother.”
“I’m not defending you.” Clary kept her eyes fixed on her mother’s face. “Whatever
happens to Jonathan happens to Jace. Do you understand, Mom? If you kill him, Jace
dies. He’s already bleeding. Mom, please.”
Jocelyn was still gripping the knife, but her expression was uncertain. “Clary…”
“Gracious, how awkward,” Sebastian observed. “I’ll be interested to see how you
resolve this. After all, I’ve got no reason to leave.”
“Yes, actually,” came a voice from the hallway, “you do.”
It was Luke, barefoot and in jeans and an old sweater. He looked tousled, and oddly
younger without his glasses. He also had a sawed-off shotgun balanced at his shoulder,
the barrel trained directly on Sebastian. “This is a Winchester twelve-gauge pump-action
shotgun. The pack uses it to put down wolves who’ve gone rogue,” he said. “Even if I
don’t kill you, I can blow your leg off, Valentine’s son.”
It was as if everyone in the room took a quick gasp of breath all at once—everyone
except Luke. And Sebastian, who, a grin splitting his face in half, turned and walked
toward Luke, as if oblivious of the gun. “‘Valentine’s son,’” he said. “Is that really how you
think of me? Under other circumstances you could have been my godfather.”
“Under other circumstances,” said Luke, sliding his finger onto the trigger, “you could
have been human.”
Sebastian stopped in his tracks. “The same could be said of you, werewolf.”
The world seemed to have slowed down. Luke sighted along the barrel of the rifle.
Sebastian stood smiling.
“Luke,” Clary said. It was like one of those dreams, a nightmare where she wanted to
scream but all that would scrape past her throat was a whisper. “Luke, don’t do it.”
Her stepfather’s finger tightened on the trigger—and then Jace exploded into
movement, launching himself from beside Clary, flipping over the sofa, and slamming into
Luke just as the shotgun went off.
The shot flew wide; one of the windows shattered outward as the bullet struck it. Luke,
knocked off balance, staggered back. Jace yanked the gun from his hands and threw it. It
hurtled through the broken window, and Jace turned back toward the older man.
“Luke—,” he began.
Luke hit him.
Even knowing everything she knew, the shock of it, seeing Luke, who had stood up for
Jace countless times to her mother, to Maryse, to the Clave—Luke, who was basically
gentle and kind—seeing him actually strike Jace across the face was as if he had hit Clary
instead. Jace, totally unprepared, was thrown backward into the wall.
And Sebastian, who had so far shown no real emotion beyond mockery and disgust,
snarled—snarled and drew from his belt a long, thin dagger. Luke’s eyes widened, and he
began to twist away, but Sebastian was faster than him—faster than anyone else Clary
had ever seen. Faster than Jace. He drove the dagger into Luke’s chest, twisting it hard
before jerking it back out, red to the hilt. Luke fell back against the wall—then slid down
it, leaving a smear of blood behind as Clary stared in horror.
Jocelyn screamed. The sound was worse than the sound of the bullet shattering the
window, though Clary heard it as if it came from a distance away, or underwater. She was
staring at Luke, who had collapsed to the floor, the carpet around him rapidly turning red.
Sebastian raised the dagger again—and Clary flung herself at him, slamming as hard as
she could into his shoulder, trying to knock him off balance. She barely moved him, but he
did drop the dagger. He turned on her. He was bleeding from a split lip. Clary didn’t know
why, not until Jace swung into her field of vision and she saw the blood on his mouth
where Luke had hit him.
“Enough!” Jace grabbed Sebastian by the back of the jacket. He was pale, not looking
at Luke, or at Clary, either. “Stop it. This isn’t why we came here.”
“Let me go—”
“No.” Jace reached around Sebastian and grabbed his hand. His eyes met Clary’s. His
lips shaped words—there was a flash of silver, the ring on Sebastian’s finger—and then
both of them were gone, winking out of existence between one breath and another. Just
as they vanished, a streak of something metallic shot through the air where they had
been standing, and buried itself in the wall.
Luke’s kindjal.
Clary turned to look at her mother, who had thrown the knife. But Jocelyn wasn’t
looking at Clary. She was darting to Luke’s side, dropping to her knees on the bloody
carpet, and pulling him up into her lap. His eyes were closed. Blood trickled from the
corners of his mouth. Sebastian’s silver dagger, smeared with more blood, lay a few feet
away.
“Mom,” Clary whispered. “Is he—”
“The dagger was silver.” Jocelyn’s voice shook. “He won’t heal fast like he should, not
without special treatment.” She touched Luke’s face with her fingertips. His chest was
rising and falling, Clary saw with relief, if shallowly. She could taste tears burning in the
back of her throat and for a moment was amazed at her mother’s calm. But then this was
the woman who had once stood in the ashes of her home, surrounded by the blackened
bodies of her family, including her parents and son, and had gone on from that. “Get
some towels from the bathroom,” her mother said. “We have to stop the bleeding.”
Clary staggered to her feet and went almost blindly into Luke’s small, tiled bathroom.
There was a gray towel hanging from the back of the door. She yanked it down, went
back into the living room. Jocelyn was holding Luke in her lap with one hand; the other
hand held a cell phone. She dropped it and reached for the towel as Clary came in.
Folding it in half, she laid it over the wound in Luke’s chest and pressed down. Clary
watched as the edges of the gray towel began to turn scarlet with blood.
“Luke,” Clary whispered. He didn’t move. His face was an awful gray color.
“I just called his pack,” Jocelyn said. She didn’t look at her daughter; Clary realized
Jocelyn had not asked her a single question about Jace and Sebastian, or why she and
Jace had emerged from her bedroom, or what they had been doing there. She was
entirely focused on Luke. “They have some members patrolling the area. As soon as they
get here, we have to leave. Jace will come back for you.”
“You don’t know that—,” Clary began, whispering past her dry throat.
“I do,” said Jocelyn. “Valentine came back for me after fifteen years. That’s what the
Morgenstern men are like. They don’t ever give up. He’ll come for you again.”
Jace isn’t Valentine. But the words died on Clary’s lips. She wanted to drop to her knees
and take Luke’s hand, hold it tightly, tell him she loved him. But she remembered Jace’s
hands on her in the bedroom and didn’t. This was her fault. She didn’t deserve to get to
comfort Luke, or herself. She deserved the pain, the guilt.
The scrape of footsteps sounded on the porch, the low murmur of voices. Jocelyn’s
head jerked up. The pack.
“Clary, go and get your things,” she said. “Take what you think you’ll need but not
more than you can carry. We’re not coming back to this house.”

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